The past week has been pure insanity. By pure insanity I don’t necessarily mean that I had tons and tons to do. It was more like… I did not want to get off the couch, think, move, etc. Sometimes I can be one moody little mofo. What the heck? The worst part is when a cranky or sad mood starts to creep up on me, I focus on feeling bad about feeling bad and then it is like a big ugly domino effect. Why it is that feeling bad once in awhile is such a bad thing?
I often feel like if I have a bad day that people will see me as a negative person and never want to talk to me again. So then I suck it up and fake it. Well last week I got over faking it. Working full time, being a full time student, and a full time mom sometimes is just way too much “full time” responsibility. I did not do a stitch of homework last week. I turned in all of my assignments yesterday and they were not my best work in addition to being late. It kind of felt good. Maybe I don’t have to get an A in every class that I ever take. Maybe I don’t need to be mother of the year every day of my life. Maybe it is okay if I am too tired to be a good wife once in awhile. And maybe, just maybe, I do not need to be the number one employee all the time. Mid life crisis? I think yes.
Anyhow, today I feel back to myself for the most part. I decided to stop focusing on making everyone else happy all the time. I was looking at pictures and decided that at least once a week I am going to make inspiration boards. I get excited by pretty things, go figure. This week I picked a color that makes me happy: green. Green is such an invigorating, alive, and uplifting color. Dear green, I love you.
Photo credits: one, two, three, four, five, and six
Here’s to a happy week,